Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The back to school blues

So I am having a bit of anxiety. I just got accepted to Point Loma University for my special education credential and I will be starting in May. I am super excited because I love school and I know that my calling is to be a teacher. But it is a huge commitment that I have to stick out for the next 18months (sounds sooo long) So it is definately bittersweat because I am happy and sad at the same time, I am definately not looking forward to essays, tests and studying. And also starting this program will bring me to the end of my time with my current job, which I love sooo much. Currently, I work for a very wealthy family in newport beach I take care of their two kids also my job has been to educate them and get them ready for preschool (they were the ones who inspired me to go back to school) So in short, it has been the best job ever and I'm really going to be sad to leave. I have been with them for almost 2 years and I am really going to have a hard time with this transition. But on the flip side I am starting the beginning of my career for the rest of my life (i think).
And to make things more difficult, my husband wants me to stay at home and raise our future kids, and possibly homeschool them, so I get nervous that I am going to spend all this time and money and I may not use it for awhile.
But the thing I keep thinking about is "Education, is something that can never be taken away" I would love to stay doormant exactly as I am but I know that God has bigger and better plans for our life. It is so hard growing up and making grown up decisions. So I guess I am just scared about all the new changes in my life. And I just needed a place to vent about my thoughts.
But as I tell Giselle when she gets scared of things: "God is bigger than the boogie man or the monsters on TV" So guess what I need to take my own advice God is bigger than all my fears too.

Hopefully, happier news to come!!!


  1. Aww Jess! it's okay to be scared because it is new... I am not fan of change either- but like you said, the Lord has bigger and better plans for our lives, and He is bigger than the boogie man!! hehe!

    You will be great in all that you do and just try to remember to enjoy the ride!!

  2. Well said :)
    God is bigger than our fears, and HIS plan is always so much better than the plans we could have ever imagined for ourselves.